Today is the first day of kindergarten. And I'm not there! It may be absolute insanity to quit your job in the middle of one of the worst economies in history, but I had to do it. During this absolutely fabulous summer, in which I hiked, camped, boated, and swam, there was a little thought nagging me. But I ignored it. The thought kept nagging on, and I kept ignoring. Then it was time for teachers to go back to school. I told myself I could do it. By day 3, I knew what I had to do. So I did. It was tough. But once I made the decision, oh what relief I felt! The nagging thought was, "My kids first. Other people's kids second." Not that I don't like other people's kids. I do. But I love mine the most. And I know what you're thinking. But it's not the case. I leave before my kids do. I'm often not home before mine get home. I very often bring my own work home, making me unable or too tired to help them with their school work. In other words, I was putting it all into my job and not saving much for them.
Six years. That's how long I have until my daughter goes to college. We've lived in Utah for six years and the time has flown by like THAT (imagine finger snapping). When I told her I quit my job, she threw her arms into the air and cheered. That was all I needed to know I'd made the right decision.
As I drove my third grader to school this morning, he was almost giddy that he was in the front seat of our Tahoe, rather than on the bus. "This is so awesome," he giggled.
My kids first.
Beyond that, I feel so liberated! My mind is swimming with possibilities. I get to volunteer in my kids' classrooms. I have lots of time to WRITE. There are two pieces of furniture in my basement that I'm going to refinish. I'm going to figure out what the heck that noise is coming from the rear end of my car. It's like the Renaissance is starting and I'm the one holding the paint brush. SWEET! The possibilities are endless. Thankfully I have an awesome hubby who is a much harder worker than I am, and is supportive of whatever I do.
So it's a little like starting over, but in a really, really good way. I'm refocusing. I'm re-prioritizing. If we end up needing the money, we'll find a way. I saw this quote a while back, and I am inspired:
"Your journey has molded you for your greater good, and it was exactly what it needed to be. Don't think that you've lost time. It took each and every situation you have encountered to bring you to the now. AND NOW IS THE RIGHT TIME."
**yay!**
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
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Go Cindy! Hope this new phase of your life is full of wonderful experiences and new opportunities. I'm sure all of your former students and their parents are glad that you shared yourself with them, but it sounds like your kids are so glad they don't have to share. What a courageous step on your part! Have a great time.
ReplyDeleteHOLY MOLY!!
ReplyDeleteYAY! So excited for you.
ReplyDeleteCindy, so glad you can get a break! You do so much! The most important thing is that you hearkened to what the spirit was telling you to do.
ReplyDeleteSaw the quote. Bawled like a baby (have had a rough year). Posted it to Facebook. New HOPE! Thank you. J.
ReplyDeleteWhat a gift to be able to do and give your family.
ReplyDeleteCindy! I'm so excited for you. This year I decided to teach part time because last year got so stressful and it's the best decision I've made in awhile. The funny thing is that my first week off I started cleaning/organizing my pantry, which led to the linen closet, which led to the extra bedroom. Congrats on your new found freedom! I'm sure your kids LOVE it!
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